I just finished chemo but I had surgery first. I developed cellulitis and then a huge infection....been in the hospital twice for lots of antiboditics and blood...not counting wearing a wound vac for 3 months. I still have more surgery and 6 weeks of radiation. There are times I feel sorry for myself and cry myself silly but then I jump back. I am so determined to lick this thing and get my life back....take your depression and turn it into a good feeling. Every day you are a survivor and become stronger...the really beautiful thing you don't realize the people you are influencing with our will to fight....you can help so many others that are fighting for their life for many things other than cancer....use your hopeless days to make you stronger, and your great days, deposit them in your bank of blessings to keep you going....a survivor friend.