Survivor since 2007
Maria, I think that dark thought is always lurking because there are no guarantee's. My doctor and his associate said something to me that was comforting.... They said, "Go live your life and let us worry about your health." I just follow what they suggest, try to eat well, take care of myself, get my check-ups, and enjoy the heck out of each day of my life. Do I still worry.....(?) of course, but there really isn't anything I can do other than live life. Do you think you are having some depression? Have you talked to your doctor about your concerns? Maybe you should make an appointment or at your next appointment, tell you doctor about your fears. There are women here who have had reoccurances but are getting treatments.
I completely understand as do lots of women here on this board. Hopefully, the further you get away from the trauma of your treatment, your fears will ease. You have been through a very tough treatment.... as I always say... "Chemo, ain't for wimps!" U hope you gradually start to feel better... but if these fears start taking over, please get in to see your doctor. Big healing hugs and take care, Sharon